Friday, October 30, 2009

Missing Jeremy

Jeremy has officially been gone for a week and a half, but it seems more like a year and a half. As soon as we got moved into this place, everyone left--Jeremy and my parents. I've been alone ever since, trying to unpack, get settled and be the best mommy I can be, as well as deal with nausea, sleepless nights with my two year old terror and the basic overwhelm of being in a new home, alone, with no friends, no family and my 3 children. It's been a blast.

Now I don't want to sound like a big whiner or anything, I am incredibly blessed and don't want to take those blessings for granted. More than anything I want to be able to come back to this years from now and remember what I was going through at this time in my life. Every part of life is a journey...some are easier than others and some are more fun, but all of them are for a purpose and intended to develop character and a closer walk with Jesus--if I'll allow for it. It sure would be nice if these benefits could come at a lower price though! I'll be honest about that.

On an up note, I found out recently that two of my best friends are also pregnant...one is due right before me and one right after. It's so exciting to have them to go through this with. One of them is pregnant with #3 and the other with #1, so it's so fun to share experiences and to be able to be a source of wisdom, if you will, with the first time mommy.

We're slowly getting back into the groove of school. Today was the first day we actually did any "real" school work, and even so, it was pretty bare-bones. I haven't found all of my school books, so I'm kinda concerned. I'm missing my girls readers as well as one of my favorite parenting books (Keeping Your Children's Hearts), so I'm really hoping to find them--soon! I taught Savannah carrying today. She just doesn't have a brain for math. It doesn't come naturally to her like reading and language do...and she isn't quite grasping the concepts that our current math curriculum is trying to teach, so we went for the old fashioned "line the numbers up and add from right to left, carrying when necessary". What's wrong with that method anyway?? I don't quite understand why math has to be made so complicated. I'm hoping that simplifying it will help her out a bit. By the end of our lesson, she was doing great.

Well, tomorrow is my least-favorite holiday of the year: Halloween. I'm excited to see what my girls come up with for costumes though. I decided that I will NOT spend money on costumes, so they can pick and choose from what they have in their closets...it should be fun. Of course we have dress up clothes from years ago too, so I think we're going to see if we can find the old bumble bee costume for Luke! It should be cute. I'll take photos and post them soon.

Well, since I'm not Miss. Energy these days, I had better take a shower and hit the hay. I'll go to bed tonight counting my blessings (of which there are many) and trying to keep my eyes fixed on Jesus, and His wonderful plans for a hope and a future for this family...and pray that I might be able to stay positive and endure these current hardships with JOY, knowing that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

A Good Reason to Resume Posting

I have to thank Facebook for my lack of posting on here...it's just so easy to go to Facebook, post a sentence or two and receive (almost) instant feedback. It cannot replace, however, the depth of a blog...nor the ability to go back in time and see what was happening in my life days, months or even years ago like I can do here. Soooo, that being said, I'm going to have to make the time to start blogging again because of the fact that I'm PREGNANT again! We just found out on Saturday (Oct. 3, 2009). I took a test to "prove" to my husband that I wasn't pregnant. He was teasing that every time he is deployed, I get pregnant. He's due to deploy for 5 months on October 21st. I wasn't happy with the laugh he got about "how funny would it be if...", so I took a pregnancy test to put my mind at ease (not to mention we're moving and I wanted "permission" to get rid of all of my baby stuff). Let's just say that I was a tad bit surprised when that pink line showed up! God has a very funny sense of humor, and although I do not understand why He does this, I trust that His plan is perfect and that this experience will lead me to lean on Him more and more...and that is always a good thing.
So, I'm 5 weeks pregnant today...I'd ideally like to update this every week with symptoms, news, etc. on this pregnancy. Last time I started blogging during my pregnancy and it's so fun to go back and read what was going on...but this time I think I'm starting earlier and maybe after 4 pregnancies, I'll be able to fully document the process to my satisfaction!
So far I don't have any real symptoms...but from what I remember, they don't start kicking in for me for another couple of weeks...which is fantastic because we're MOVING...and I need the energy to get things done. I have been craving salt a lot, but other than that...well, other than that and 3 + pregnancy tests, there isn't a whole lot telling me that I truly AM pregnant...which is right on target for what's "normal" for me.
Well, I've got lots of packing and cleaning to do...until next time...